Been working a lot lately! My pay checks are still small, but at least I have money coming in. I'm really considering pushing my start date for film school back a little bit to save more money, but we'll see where I'm at when I move in with my dad. Right now I'm pretty much flat broke, and owing my boyfriend around 2000 dollars for rent and groceries and stuff. And with my paychecks, I will still be paying him back when I move out. Which means, I can't really start saving until it gets too close to September.
I would hate to have to push back my date though. I just feel like time is fleeting, and I don't want to keep putting it off. I want to be young. I know I will be still, but every time I read actor's biographies and stuff, they all had some sort of a start by the time they were in high school. I feel like I'm going to be too late.
I want to take more classes while I'm here as well, but I just can't afford it. My agency won't even let me go on acting auditions because I haven't taken the class to properly audition. It's really frustrating.
But oh well. Things will work out, right?

School!

Alright, so disregard my last post. I figured out it is A LOT harder to get the visa I would need to work in the states then I thought. So I am definently still going to school, and then have to make some sort of name for myself in Canada before I can go to California. Which is fine, it'll be a good experience and I'll learn a lot. But this means that I have to still come up with 28,000 dollars.

I got a job though! London Drugs haha. It's all good though, I went in there hoping for any kind of job, cashier most likely, and they want me to be customer service, so that's a little bit of a higher wage, and it'll let me get a better job when I move back in with my dad in December. So right now my shifts are split into cashiering, and then stocking until I get trained up enough to be customer service.

My savings are at just over a hundred, sad I know, and on top of it, I owe my boyfriend almost two grand for rent and groceries. But at least it's just money to him and not the bank or something. I just need to save everything I can, and if it comes down to it, I can push my start date back for school a bit. I would really prefer not to though, so I'm going to work really hard.

Hope all is well in your lives!

Change of Plans

So, I was thinking the other night, and things just became really clear to me. I feel like film school might be a huge mistake. My dream was always just to go to California and wing it. I mean, I could save for a year and a half and go to California, and live out my dream. Or I could desperately try to save for a year for school, come out of it 28000 dollars in debt and never be able to go to Cali. I mean, I can take courses once I get there, and I'm sure for a lot cheaper. I would rather live my dreams, then regret it forever, even if I get there and it doesn't work out at all, at least I'll know I did it.

So thats the plan, January 1, 2012 I will be California bound.

Agents, Weddings, and Jobs

So I actually have some news to write about this time!
1) I had two interviews, I did get the first job, but I decided not to take it, because the wage and distance just wasn't worth it.
2) I have an amazing interview on Tuesday, it pays more than I'll be able to find anywhere else, but the kicker is that it is an hour bus ride, with two transfers to get there, and 12 hour shifts. The 12 hour shifts don't concern me as much as getting there because I'm really good with busing. I don't understand how people just know where to get off!
3) I now have an agent! I signed with Alliance Artist Management, so now I can actually get out there, get some experience and make a little extra cash on the side! I'm really excited about that one.

So it's been a good week so far. I'll probably just be an extra and that kind of stuff, but it'll be really fun to get to be on a set and see how everything works.

Also, my best friend got engaged recently and asked me to be her maid of honour! I am so thrilled for her and for when the wedding comes. I've never got to be part of a wedding party before so it's going to be really exciting!

Interview!

So I was in a job slump for awhile, but yesterday, I got two calls for interviews, and I had one in my voicemail today!
So I went on the first interview at 9am this morning. It was for a hostessing job. I feel like it went well, but he did most of the talking, so I hope I wasn't supposed to be butting in... But I'll find out about that on Tuesday. It's only part time too, so I could get a second part time job to balance it out.
The second job interview I have is next Tuesday. It's to be one of those people that stand on the street and ask for donations, or people to sign up for World Vision, or another non profit charity. I think it'd be pretty cool, to be outside all day, and campaign for a good cause.
And the third job is to be a cashier. Pretty boring, I know. But it is the closest one to home, and from the looks of it, it might pay more as well. But I haven't even set up the interview for this one yet so we'll see.
But things definently seem to be looking up in that aspect atleast. Plus, I got up at 7:20 today. That's about 4 or 5 hours earlier than normal haha. And it feels good. I feel like I actually have an entire day now and I can go do things and be productive.

Hope your week is going awesome too!!!

Counselling...

So, I did a telephone counselling session today. They just call and talk for an hour, like a real appointment without actually having to go anywhere. I thought I wouldn't like doing it that way but it was good. I'm doing it because I guess I just feel a little stressed and depressed lately, and I want to try to make it better before it gets worse. She recommended a couple things that seemed good, she said physical activity would help a lot, and said I should start going for walks. She told me a couple of foods I could try eating that are natural mood boosters, and she also suggested journaling. Sooo maybe that's what this is?
I don't know, I'm feeling good today. I just feel like I have no direction and motivation right now. Like, I know what I want long term, and I kind of feel like I'm just sitting here, waiting to go to school. I mean, I obviously have to work so I can pay for school, if I could ever get a job haha.
But maybe that's it. Once I get a job, I'm sure I'll feel a lot happier. But not having to do anything all day, or having to wake up for anything really takes its toll. Plus, I still don't know anyone here, so that doesn't really help. How do people even make friends when they don't have school or a job? It doesn't even make sense to me.
So, here's hoping I get a call back asap and I can start feeling like I have some purpose, however small it may be. Maybe I'll make it my goal to go for a walk everyday or something. I want to get myself in better shape anyways, so thats a bonus.
We'll see how it all works out I guess!

Family...

Just got home last night around 2am from another weekend away. It was good though. I got to see my sisters who I haven't seen in awhile, and my nieces. We went to the fringe. I hadn't been since I was little, and it was alright. It would have been better if I was dressed for the weather, but stupid me only packed jeans and two black tshirts. So I was sweating haha. And then we went back to my sisters house and had a bbq.

We also went to Sally Beauty. My sister got me a gift card for there for my birthday a couple months ago, so I bought a triple barrel curling iron, and a back combing brush. It was fun. My sisters each got hair extensions, and  managed to get one little piece in my oldest sisters hair, but took it out when they realized they weren't quite sure how to get them in. It made me really miss my family though.

I'm only living in Calgary for a few more months, but still. I think my dad is wanting me to move back sooner, because I've decided when I move back I'm going to move back in with him to save money for school, although the fact that I still haven't found a job is enough to make me worry. Hopefully it'll just all work out though.

No acting news to speak of yet, but maybe one day I'll actually have something!!!

Scams and Rumors...

Alright, so the one and only interview I've gotten so far was for what seemed to be a sweet marketing job. Paying way more than I could get anywhere else and with extremely flexible hours and really close to home. But if it seems to good to be true, it probably is. I decided to google the company to see what they were all about, and what did I find? That they are scammers. So my interview is at 5, which is 3 hours away, and me being too scared to call and "reject" them or say no, I tried emailing them saying I've found a job somewhere else and wouldn't be able to make the interview. But the email address they gave me is an automated email, so I can't actually send anything to it. So I don't know, but I am not going under any circumstances, because I know I'll get in there, and they'll make it sound so amazing and I'll dig myself into a hole haha.
But, on the up side, a lot more places seem to be hiring now. So I've applied to quite a few more. I called one today to follow up, but she said to call back in a couple days 'cause they are just going through everything now. I hope I get it sooo bad.

Anyways enough about work. Have you ever had someone lie about you and spread very untrue rumors? Yeah, sure in high school probably. But we aren't in high school anymore, so it's kind of ridiculous. Especially when the rumors are untrue, and are things that could actually do some damage to my life. It shouldn't even bother me, because the person that the rumor will affect doesn't care, or believe them, but it's still so annoying. I get so frustrated when people believe something about me that is such a blatant lie. I guess this shows how great I'd be if I was famous in hollywood haha.

Home Sweet Home

Just got home from the long weekend at BVJ. I had the best time, but sleeping in my bed again is sooo good.
I messed up my knee and foot pretty bad when I was there, but I guess that's what you get when your running around drunk and not paying attention. My toes look like balloons and my knee looks like I took a chunk out of it. Also, I was doing really good with my savings before this weekend, but I ended up using some of it. So now I have saved $20.34. Eek!
And sadly, I am still jobless. With my luck, someone will call me for an interview today, the one day that I can't walk haha.

Hope your long weekend was as good as mine!

Country?

I am going to bvj this weekend. A country music thing in my hometown. It'll be cool to go back there and hopefully run into some old friends. I'm not exactly a country music fan, but it'll be fun to go anyways. Plus, the best part, is that my best friend, who lives in a different province is coming! So yay!!!! I was half excited to go, but after she said she was going too, I was sooooo stoked! We have been best friends for about 10 years, and hardly ever lived in the same town. So every time we see each other, we have to try and make up for all the lost time.

Cost...

Alright, so I've saved $19.66 now for school haha. Still no job though. I did have an interview, which I should hear back about next week. Been trying to figure out student loans, and moving and everything else, so I'm prepared when the time comes.
I've been trying to see if I can go on auditions and do something to gain experience. But two problems; I don't have a head shot, and I don't drive, so getting there is always an issue.
I'm going to lend some props to a theater group tomorrow, so maybe when I go I can talk to them about auditioning without a head shot, since they ALWAYS ask for one.
Or even better, I could get a job and actually go get head shots done! haha.

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Doubt...

I want this so badly. I want to go to school. I want to follow my dreams. But sometimes, when I look at it, it just seems so impossible. Like, how will I ever come up with the money? How will I move there? How will I get to school once I'm there? I feel like all the odds are stacked against me right now and it's extremely discouraging.

My starter package, with my acceptance letter and everything else was mailed to me. I guess that got me a little more excited.

Hopefully I get out of this mood soon 'cause it's really dragging me down.

Hope you all are having a better day than me!

Spray Tan pt 2

So I just got done the spray tan, and it looks amazing! I'm so glad I decided to do it.
 I honestly recommend it to anyone out there to just try it once. I feel so much more confident now.

Here's a link to the lady who did mine:
http://tropicalbeautybuzz.ca/

Spray Tan?!

Alright so my mom is currently getting a spray tan, and I'm up next. eek!
If I come out looking like one of those orange guidettes, that is going to suck! But hay, if she's willing to pay and she wants me to get it done, then why not? I just pray I am not orange, especially if I'm going to have an interview when I get back home. Whats the reason for my mom wanting a spray tan? Well, Bon Jovi of course...
We are seeing them tomorrow, for the third time, and she insists on looking her absolute best, just in case, Jon sees her. How ridiculous. She is getting her hair and makeup done for the show, not to mention trying to find the BEST outfit to wear. I, on the other hand, will be wearing a tshirt and jeans. But oh well, if this is what she wants to do then who am I to stop her.
Although I am a little worried about the attire I have to wear for the spray tan. It's this little g-string, that is "one size fits all" and stickers to cover my other parts. It's going to be mortifying. But whatever, atleast it's something I can check off the list of things I've done in my life.

So here I am...

I made it, and for a bus ride that was only 3 hours and 55 minutes, it felt like the longest drive ever! Mostly because we didn't stop anywhere to stretch or do anything. Lame.

I got an email from my film school the other day talking about housing and making the move as easy as possible. It's really exciting, but terrifying at the same time. They have a payment plan on there, marking which dates things NEED to be paid by. But it still gives me about a year, so that's good. Still no job though. We got voicemail on our house phone though before I left so if anywhere calls I hopefully still have a shot at getting the job.

Also, there are so many auditions for live theater in my area, but they all ask for head shots. And if you didn't know, head shots are expensive. This acting thing has turned out to be ridiculously expensive. But oh well, I'll find a way. I'm following my dreams, and that's what matters.

I've also been listening to these ipod touch apps for quitting smoking. I'm not really sure that they're helping. I wish I could just stop and be done with it. It was soo easy for me before. sigh sigh sigh.

I just have to try harder.

Top 5 Favorite Movies

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Goals...

Okay so my top three goals right now are:

1. Get in shape

2. Quit smoking

3. Save $28000 in a year somehow

and honestly, right now I have more faith that I'll get $28000 then I do for the other two. How sad is that?

Had a reallllyyy bad day yesterday. drama drama drama, torn between being a good person and being responsible. But hopefully it's working out now. I gave in and if doing that costs me getting a job or anything else I'm gonna be pissed. But a promise is a promise. I'm losing a week because of it. Which is something I really cannot afford to do right now, but she'd never see that. I just have to suck it up and go with it. Maybe it'll bring me good karma or something haha, and not to mention, hopefully, change her life for the better. And in the end, that's all I want.

Haven't saved anymore money yet. But as soon as I get a job I will.

Change of lifestyle...

I went to the gym today. 10 minutes on the treadmill. eff ya. haha.

still no job though. decided im going to quit smoking, for real this time.

i just need to set up a good plan. something that'll keep me from buying more.

I looked into 3 potential singing teachers as well. One is 125/month, 17/session and 45/session.

all with different amounts of experience. soo im not sure which to choose yet.

oh well ill figure it out

The joys of job hunting...

Did some more job hunting today. I've now applied at one of the same places 3 times. This recession sucks.

But hopefully somebody will call me soon!

I've now saved a total of $8.66 for school. haha.

Only $26, 591.34 to go!

sigh.

But enjoying summertime atleast!

Set backs...

Sooo bad news. I am not going to meet with that talent agency today, because I read some really not good reviews about it. I definently don't have the money to get scammed right now haha. So oh well, I'll keep looking.

I had an interview today, which is good considering I have to come up with 28000 dollars for school by this time next year. So far I've saved a whopping $7.66, how encouraging.

I need a job ASAP.

film school...

Okay sooo I have been accepted to Film School, which is pretty exciting...except that I don't start for another year. So that's kind of lame, but oh well.

I finished my six week acting class already. The classes were once a week, and then to have a rehearsal with your "scene partner" during some other time of the week. It was fun, I learned a lot, but am still, unfortunately, extremely shy. And frankly, being shy just doesn't work when you want to be an actress.

So I need to get myself prepared for school so I don't go completely unnoticed the whole time. I want it to be the best experience of my life, and I definently do not want my shyness holding me back from it. Oh, and I forgot to mention, when I go to school, one of the classes is singing. I am a horrible singer. So I was thinking maybe voice lessons this summer to get my confidence up. Maybe I'll take another acting class or something too.

I have a meeting with an agency tomorrow, just to be an extra and stuff, make a little money on the side and gain some experience. So hopefully that goes well. And hopefully it's not a scam. But I suppose I'll figure it out if they start asking for $5000 to make me a star haha.

I'll write about how it goes tomorrow.

Goodnight!