Country?

I am going to bvj this weekend. A country music thing in my hometown. It'll be cool to go back there and hopefully run into some old friends. I'm not exactly a country music fan, but it'll be fun to go anyways. Plus, the best part, is that my best friend, who lives in a different province is coming! So yay!!!! I was half excited to go, but after she said she was going too, I was sooooo stoked! We have been best friends for about 10 years, and hardly ever lived in the same town. So every time we see each other, we have to try and make up for all the lost time.

Cost...

Alright, so I've saved $19.66 now for school haha. Still no job though. I did have an interview, which I should hear back about next week. Been trying to figure out student loans, and moving and everything else, so I'm prepared when the time comes.
I've been trying to see if I can go on auditions and do something to gain experience. But two problems; I don't have a head shot, and I don't drive, so getting there is always an issue.
I'm going to lend some props to a theater group tomorrow, so maybe when I go I can talk to them about auditioning without a head shot, since they ALWAYS ask for one.
Or even better, I could get a job and actually go get head shots done! haha.

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Doubt...

I want this so badly. I want to go to school. I want to follow my dreams. But sometimes, when I look at it, it just seems so impossible. Like, how will I ever come up with the money? How will I move there? How will I get to school once I'm there? I feel like all the odds are stacked against me right now and it's extremely discouraging.

My starter package, with my acceptance letter and everything else was mailed to me. I guess that got me a little more excited.

Hopefully I get out of this mood soon 'cause it's really dragging me down.

Hope you all are having a better day than me!

Spray Tan pt 2

So I just got done the spray tan, and it looks amazing! I'm so glad I decided to do it.
 I honestly recommend it to anyone out there to just try it once. I feel so much more confident now.

Here's a link to the lady who did mine:
http://tropicalbeautybuzz.ca/

Spray Tan?!

Alright so my mom is currently getting a spray tan, and I'm up next. eek!
If I come out looking like one of those orange guidettes, that is going to suck! But hay, if she's willing to pay and she wants me to get it done, then why not? I just pray I am not orange, especially if I'm going to have an interview when I get back home. Whats the reason for my mom wanting a spray tan? Well, Bon Jovi of course...
We are seeing them tomorrow, for the third time, and she insists on looking her absolute best, just in case, Jon sees her. How ridiculous. She is getting her hair and makeup done for the show, not to mention trying to find the BEST outfit to wear. I, on the other hand, will be wearing a tshirt and jeans. But oh well, if this is what she wants to do then who am I to stop her.
Although I am a little worried about the attire I have to wear for the spray tan. It's this little g-string, that is "one size fits all" and stickers to cover my other parts. It's going to be mortifying. But whatever, atleast it's something I can check off the list of things I've done in my life.

So here I am...

I made it, and for a bus ride that was only 3 hours and 55 minutes, it felt like the longest drive ever! Mostly because we didn't stop anywhere to stretch or do anything. Lame.

I got an email from my film school the other day talking about housing and making the move as easy as possible. It's really exciting, but terrifying at the same time. They have a payment plan on there, marking which dates things NEED to be paid by. But it still gives me about a year, so that's good. Still no job though. We got voicemail on our house phone though before I left so if anywhere calls I hopefully still have a shot at getting the job.

Also, there are so many auditions for live theater in my area, but they all ask for head shots. And if you didn't know, head shots are expensive. This acting thing has turned out to be ridiculously expensive. But oh well, I'll find a way. I'm following my dreams, and that's what matters.

I've also been listening to these ipod touch apps for quitting smoking. I'm not really sure that they're helping. I wish I could just stop and be done with it. It was soo easy for me before. sigh sigh sigh.

I just have to try harder.

Top 5 Favorite Movies

Here are my top 5 favorite movies.
   

Goals...

Okay so my top three goals right now are:

1. Get in shape

2. Quit smoking

3. Save $28000 in a year somehow

and honestly, right now I have more faith that I'll get $28000 then I do for the other two. How sad is that?

Had a reallllyyy bad day yesterday. drama drama drama, torn between being a good person and being responsible. But hopefully it's working out now. I gave in and if doing that costs me getting a job or anything else I'm gonna be pissed. But a promise is a promise. I'm losing a week because of it. Which is something I really cannot afford to do right now, but she'd never see that. I just have to suck it up and go with it. Maybe it'll bring me good karma or something haha, and not to mention, hopefully, change her life for the better. And in the end, that's all I want.

Haven't saved anymore money yet. But as soon as I get a job I will.

Change of lifestyle...

I went to the gym today. 10 minutes on the treadmill. eff ya. haha.

still no job though. decided im going to quit smoking, for real this time.

i just need to set up a good plan. something that'll keep me from buying more.

I looked into 3 potential singing teachers as well. One is 125/month, 17/session and 45/session.

all with different amounts of experience. soo im not sure which to choose yet.

oh well ill figure it out

The joys of job hunting...

Did some more job hunting today. I've now applied at one of the same places 3 times. This recession sucks.

But hopefully somebody will call me soon!

I've now saved a total of $8.66 for school. haha.

Only $26, 591.34 to go!

sigh.

But enjoying summertime atleast!

Set backs...

Sooo bad news. I am not going to meet with that talent agency today, because I read some really not good reviews about it. I definently don't have the money to get scammed right now haha. So oh well, I'll keep looking.

I had an interview today, which is good considering I have to come up with 28000 dollars for school by this time next year. So far I've saved a whopping $7.66, how encouraging.

I need a job ASAP.

film school...

Okay sooo I have been accepted to Film School, which is pretty exciting...except that I don't start for another year. So that's kind of lame, but oh well.

I finished my six week acting class already. The classes were once a week, and then to have a rehearsal with your "scene partner" during some other time of the week. It was fun, I learned a lot, but am still, unfortunately, extremely shy. And frankly, being shy just doesn't work when you want to be an actress.

So I need to get myself prepared for school so I don't go completely unnoticed the whole time. I want it to be the best experience of my life, and I definently do not want my shyness holding me back from it. Oh, and I forgot to mention, when I go to school, one of the classes is singing. I am a horrible singer. So I was thinking maybe voice lessons this summer to get my confidence up. Maybe I'll take another acting class or something too.

I have a meeting with an agency tomorrow, just to be an extra and stuff, make a little money on the side and gain some experience. So hopefully that goes well. And hopefully it's not a scam. But I suppose I'll figure it out if they start asking for $5000 to make me a star haha.

I'll write about how it goes tomorrow.

Goodnight!