Been working a lot lately! My pay checks are still small, but at least I have money coming in. I'm really considering pushing my start date for film school back a little bit to save more money, but we'll see where I'm at when I move in with my dad. Right now I'm pretty much flat broke, and owing my boyfriend around 2000 dollars for rent and groceries and stuff. And with my paychecks, I will still be paying him back when I move out. Which means, I can't really start saving until it gets too close to September.
I would hate to have to push back my date though. I just feel like time is fleeting, and I don't want to keep putting it off. I want to be young. I know I will be still, but every time I read actor's biographies and stuff, they all had some sort of a start by the time they were in high school. I feel like I'm going to be too late.
I want to take more classes while I'm here as well, but I just can't afford it. My agency won't even let me go on acting auditions because I haven't taken the class to properly audition. It's really frustrating.
But oh well. Things will work out, right?

School!

Alright, so disregard my last post. I figured out it is A LOT harder to get the visa I would need to work in the states then I thought. So I am definently still going to school, and then have to make some sort of name for myself in Canada before I can go to California. Which is fine, it'll be a good experience and I'll learn a lot. But this means that I have to still come up with 28,000 dollars.

I got a job though! London Drugs haha. It's all good though, I went in there hoping for any kind of job, cashier most likely, and they want me to be customer service, so that's a little bit of a higher wage, and it'll let me get a better job when I move back in with my dad in December. So right now my shifts are split into cashiering, and then stocking until I get trained up enough to be customer service.

My savings are at just over a hundred, sad I know, and on top of it, I owe my boyfriend almost two grand for rent and groceries. But at least it's just money to him and not the bank or something. I just need to save everything I can, and if it comes down to it, I can push my start date back for school a bit. I would really prefer not to though, so I'm going to work really hard.

Hope all is well in your lives!

Cost...

Alright, so I've saved $19.66 now for school haha. Still no job though. I did have an interview, which I should hear back about next week. Been trying to figure out student loans, and moving and everything else, so I'm prepared when the time comes.
I've been trying to see if I can go on auditions and do something to gain experience. But two problems; I don't have a head shot, and I don't drive, so getting there is always an issue.
I'm going to lend some props to a theater group tomorrow, so maybe when I go I can talk to them about auditioning without a head shot, since they ALWAYS ask for one.
Or even better, I could get a job and actually go get head shots done! haha.

So here I am...

I made it, and for a bus ride that was only 3 hours and 55 minutes, it felt like the longest drive ever! Mostly because we didn't stop anywhere to stretch or do anything. Lame.

I got an email from my film school the other day talking about housing and making the move as easy as possible. It's really exciting, but terrifying at the same time. They have a payment plan on there, marking which dates things NEED to be paid by. But it still gives me about a year, so that's good. Still no job though. We got voicemail on our house phone though before I left so if anywhere calls I hopefully still have a shot at getting the job.

Also, there are so many auditions for live theater in my area, but they all ask for head shots. And if you didn't know, head shots are expensive. This acting thing has turned out to be ridiculously expensive. But oh well, I'll find a way. I'm following my dreams, and that's what matters.

I've also been listening to these ipod touch apps for quitting smoking. I'm not really sure that they're helping. I wish I could just stop and be done with it. It was soo easy for me before. sigh sigh sigh.

I just have to try harder.

Goals...

Okay so my top three goals right now are:

1. Get in shape

2. Quit smoking

3. Save $28000 in a year somehow

and honestly, right now I have more faith that I'll get $28000 then I do for the other two. How sad is that?

Had a reallllyyy bad day yesterday. drama drama drama, torn between being a good person and being responsible. But hopefully it's working out now. I gave in and if doing that costs me getting a job or anything else I'm gonna be pissed. But a promise is a promise. I'm losing a week because of it. Which is something I really cannot afford to do right now, but she'd never see that. I just have to suck it up and go with it. Maybe it'll bring me good karma or something haha, and not to mention, hopefully, change her life for the better. And in the end, that's all I want.

Haven't saved anymore money yet. But as soon as I get a job I will.