Change of Plans

So, I was thinking the other night, and things just became really clear to me. I feel like film school might be a huge mistake. My dream was always just to go to California and wing it. I mean, I could save for a year and a half and go to California, and live out my dream. Or I could desperately try to save for a year for school, come out of it 28000 dollars in debt and never be able to go to Cali. I mean, I can take courses once I get there, and I'm sure for a lot cheaper. I would rather live my dreams, then regret it forever, even if I get there and it doesn't work out at all, at least I'll know I did it.

So thats the plan, January 1, 2012 I will be California bound.

So here I am...

I made it, and for a bus ride that was only 3 hours and 55 minutes, it felt like the longest drive ever! Mostly because we didn't stop anywhere to stretch or do anything. Lame.

I got an email from my film school the other day talking about housing and making the move as easy as possible. It's really exciting, but terrifying at the same time. They have a payment plan on there, marking which dates things NEED to be paid by. But it still gives me about a year, so that's good. Still no job though. We got voicemail on our house phone though before I left so if anywhere calls I hopefully still have a shot at getting the job.

Also, there are so many auditions for live theater in my area, but they all ask for head shots. And if you didn't know, head shots are expensive. This acting thing has turned out to be ridiculously expensive. But oh well, I'll find a way. I'm following my dreams, and that's what matters.

I've also been listening to these ipod touch apps for quitting smoking. I'm not really sure that they're helping. I wish I could just stop and be done with it. It was soo easy for me before. sigh sigh sigh.

I just have to try harder.

Set backs...

Sooo bad news. I am not going to meet with that talent agency today, because I read some really not good reviews about it. I definently don't have the money to get scammed right now haha. So oh well, I'll keep looking.

I had an interview today, which is good considering I have to come up with 28000 dollars for school by this time next year. So far I've saved a whopping $7.66, how encouraging.

I need a job ASAP.

film school...

Okay sooo I have been accepted to Film School, which is pretty exciting...except that I don't start for another year. So that's kind of lame, but oh well.

I finished my six week acting class already. The classes were once a week, and then to have a rehearsal with your "scene partner" during some other time of the week. It was fun, I learned a lot, but am still, unfortunately, extremely shy. And frankly, being shy just doesn't work when you want to be an actress.

So I need to get myself prepared for school so I don't go completely unnoticed the whole time. I want it to be the best experience of my life, and I definently do not want my shyness holding me back from it. Oh, and I forgot to mention, when I go to school, one of the classes is singing. I am a horrible singer. So I was thinking maybe voice lessons this summer to get my confidence up. Maybe I'll take another acting class or something too.

I have a meeting with an agency tomorrow, just to be an extra and stuff, make a little money on the side and gain some experience. So hopefully that goes well. And hopefully it's not a scam. But I suppose I'll figure it out if they start asking for $5000 to make me a star haha.

I'll write about how it goes tomorrow.

Goodnight!