School!

Alright, so disregard my last post. I figured out it is A LOT harder to get the visa I would need to work in the states then I thought. So I am definently still going to school, and then have to make some sort of name for myself in Canada before I can go to California. Which is fine, it'll be a good experience and I'll learn a lot. But this means that I have to still come up with 28,000 dollars.

I got a job though! London Drugs haha. It's all good though, I went in there hoping for any kind of job, cashier most likely, and they want me to be customer service, so that's a little bit of a higher wage, and it'll let me get a better job when I move back in with my dad in December. So right now my shifts are split into cashiering, and then stocking until I get trained up enough to be customer service.

My savings are at just over a hundred, sad I know, and on top of it, I owe my boyfriend almost two grand for rent and groceries. But at least it's just money to him and not the bank or something. I just need to save everything I can, and if it comes down to it, I can push my start date back for school a bit. I would really prefer not to though, so I'm going to work really hard.

Hope all is well in your lives!

Change of Plans

So, I was thinking the other night, and things just became really clear to me. I feel like film school might be a huge mistake. My dream was always just to go to California and wing it. I mean, I could save for a year and a half and go to California, and live out my dream. Or I could desperately try to save for a year for school, come out of it 28000 dollars in debt and never be able to go to Cali. I mean, I can take courses once I get there, and I'm sure for a lot cheaper. I would rather live my dreams, then regret it forever, even if I get there and it doesn't work out at all, at least I'll know I did it.

So thats the plan, January 1, 2012 I will be California bound.

Counselling...

So, I did a telephone counselling session today. They just call and talk for an hour, like a real appointment without actually having to go anywhere. I thought I wouldn't like doing it that way but it was good. I'm doing it because I guess I just feel a little stressed and depressed lately, and I want to try to make it better before it gets worse. She recommended a couple things that seemed good, she said physical activity would help a lot, and said I should start going for walks. She told me a couple of foods I could try eating that are natural mood boosters, and she also suggested journaling. Sooo maybe that's what this is?
I don't know, I'm feeling good today. I just feel like I have no direction and motivation right now. Like, I know what I want long term, and I kind of feel like I'm just sitting here, waiting to go to school. I mean, I obviously have to work so I can pay for school, if I could ever get a job haha.
But maybe that's it. Once I get a job, I'm sure I'll feel a lot happier. But not having to do anything all day, or having to wake up for anything really takes its toll. Plus, I still don't know anyone here, so that doesn't really help. How do people even make friends when they don't have school or a job? It doesn't even make sense to me.
So, here's hoping I get a call back asap and I can start feeling like I have some purpose, however small it may be. Maybe I'll make it my goal to go for a walk everyday or something. I want to get myself in better shape anyways, so thats a bonus.
We'll see how it all works out I guess!

Cost...

Alright, so I've saved $19.66 now for school haha. Still no job though. I did have an interview, which I should hear back about next week. Been trying to figure out student loans, and moving and everything else, so I'm prepared when the time comes.
I've been trying to see if I can go on auditions and do something to gain experience. But two problems; I don't have a head shot, and I don't drive, so getting there is always an issue.
I'm going to lend some props to a theater group tomorrow, so maybe when I go I can talk to them about auditioning without a head shot, since they ALWAYS ask for one.
Or even better, I could get a job and actually go get head shots done! haha.

Doubt...

I want this so badly. I want to go to school. I want to follow my dreams. But sometimes, when I look at it, it just seems so impossible. Like, how will I ever come up with the money? How will I move there? How will I get to school once I'm there? I feel like all the odds are stacked against me right now and it's extremely discouraging.

My starter package, with my acceptance letter and everything else was mailed to me. I guess that got me a little more excited.

Hopefully I get out of this mood soon 'cause it's really dragging me down.

Hope you all are having a better day than me!

The joys of job hunting...

Did some more job hunting today. I've now applied at one of the same places 3 times. This recession sucks.

But hopefully somebody will call me soon!

I've now saved a total of $8.66 for school. haha.

Only $26, 591.34 to go!

sigh.

But enjoying summertime atleast!

Set backs...

Sooo bad news. I am not going to meet with that talent agency today, because I read some really not good reviews about it. I definently don't have the money to get scammed right now haha. So oh well, I'll keep looking.

I had an interview today, which is good considering I have to come up with 28000 dollars for school by this time next year. So far I've saved a whopping $7.66, how encouraging.

I need a job ASAP.