Been working a lot lately! My pay checks are still small, but at least I have money coming in. I'm really considering pushing my start date for film school back a little bit to save more money, but we'll see where I'm at when I move in with my dad. Right now I'm pretty much flat broke, and owing my boyfriend around 2000 dollars for rent and groceries and stuff. And with my paychecks, I will still be paying him back when I move out. Which means, I can't really start saving until it gets too close to September.
I would hate to have to push back my date though. I just feel like time is fleeting, and I don't want to keep putting it off. I want to be young. I know I will be still, but every time I read actor's biographies and stuff, they all had some sort of a start by the time they were in high school. I feel like I'm going to be too late.
I want to take more classes while I'm here as well, but I just can't afford it. My agency won't even let me go on acting auditions because I haven't taken the class to properly audition. It's really frustrating.
But oh well. Things will work out, right?

School!

Alright, so disregard my last post. I figured out it is A LOT harder to get the visa I would need to work in the states then I thought. So I am definently still going to school, and then have to make some sort of name for myself in Canada before I can go to California. Which is fine, it'll be a good experience and I'll learn a lot. But this means that I have to still come up with 28,000 dollars.

I got a job though! London Drugs haha. It's all good though, I went in there hoping for any kind of job, cashier most likely, and they want me to be customer service, so that's a little bit of a higher wage, and it'll let me get a better job when I move back in with my dad in December. So right now my shifts are split into cashiering, and then stocking until I get trained up enough to be customer service.

My savings are at just over a hundred, sad I know, and on top of it, I owe my boyfriend almost two grand for rent and groceries. But at least it's just money to him and not the bank or something. I just need to save everything I can, and if it comes down to it, I can push my start date back for school a bit. I would really prefer not to though, so I'm going to work really hard.

Hope all is well in your lives!

Change of Plans

So, I was thinking the other night, and things just became really clear to me. I feel like film school might be a huge mistake. My dream was always just to go to California and wing it. I mean, I could save for a year and a half and go to California, and live out my dream. Or I could desperately try to save for a year for school, come out of it 28000 dollars in debt and never be able to go to Cali. I mean, I can take courses once I get there, and I'm sure for a lot cheaper. I would rather live my dreams, then regret it forever, even if I get there and it doesn't work out at all, at least I'll know I did it.

So thats the plan, January 1, 2012 I will be California bound.

Agents, Weddings, and Jobs

So I actually have some news to write about this time!
1) I had two interviews, I did get the first job, but I decided not to take it, because the wage and distance just wasn't worth it.
2) I have an amazing interview on Tuesday, it pays more than I'll be able to find anywhere else, but the kicker is that it is an hour bus ride, with two transfers to get there, and 12 hour shifts. The 12 hour shifts don't concern me as much as getting there because I'm really good with busing. I don't understand how people just know where to get off!
3) I now have an agent! I signed with Alliance Artist Management, so now I can actually get out there, get some experience and make a little extra cash on the side! I'm really excited about that one.

So it's been a good week so far. I'll probably just be an extra and that kind of stuff, but it'll be really fun to get to be on a set and see how everything works.

Also, my best friend got engaged recently and asked me to be her maid of honour! I am so thrilled for her and for when the wedding comes. I've never got to be part of a wedding party before so it's going to be really exciting!

Interview!

So I was in a job slump for awhile, but yesterday, I got two calls for interviews, and I had one in my voicemail today!
So I went on the first interview at 9am this morning. It was for a hostessing job. I feel like it went well, but he did most of the talking, so I hope I wasn't supposed to be butting in... But I'll find out about that on Tuesday. It's only part time too, so I could get a second part time job to balance it out.
The second job interview I have is next Tuesday. It's to be one of those people that stand on the street and ask for donations, or people to sign up for World Vision, or another non profit charity. I think it'd be pretty cool, to be outside all day, and campaign for a good cause.
And the third job is to be a cashier. Pretty boring, I know. But it is the closest one to home, and from the looks of it, it might pay more as well. But I haven't even set up the interview for this one yet so we'll see.
But things definently seem to be looking up in that aspect atleast. Plus, I got up at 7:20 today. That's about 4 or 5 hours earlier than normal haha. And it feels good. I feel like I actually have an entire day now and I can go do things and be productive.

Hope your week is going awesome too!!!

Counselling...

So, I did a telephone counselling session today. They just call and talk for an hour, like a real appointment without actually having to go anywhere. I thought I wouldn't like doing it that way but it was good. I'm doing it because I guess I just feel a little stressed and depressed lately, and I want to try to make it better before it gets worse. She recommended a couple things that seemed good, she said physical activity would help a lot, and said I should start going for walks. She told me a couple of foods I could try eating that are natural mood boosters, and she also suggested journaling. Sooo maybe that's what this is?
I don't know, I'm feeling good today. I just feel like I have no direction and motivation right now. Like, I know what I want long term, and I kind of feel like I'm just sitting here, waiting to go to school. I mean, I obviously have to work so I can pay for school, if I could ever get a job haha.
But maybe that's it. Once I get a job, I'm sure I'll feel a lot happier. But not having to do anything all day, or having to wake up for anything really takes its toll. Plus, I still don't know anyone here, so that doesn't really help. How do people even make friends when they don't have school or a job? It doesn't even make sense to me.
So, here's hoping I get a call back asap and I can start feeling like I have some purpose, however small it may be. Maybe I'll make it my goal to go for a walk everyday or something. I want to get myself in better shape anyways, so thats a bonus.
We'll see how it all works out I guess!

Family...

Just got home last night around 2am from another weekend away. It was good though. I got to see my sisters who I haven't seen in awhile, and my nieces. We went to the fringe. I hadn't been since I was little, and it was alright. It would have been better if I was dressed for the weather, but stupid me only packed jeans and two black tshirts. So I was sweating haha. And then we went back to my sisters house and had a bbq.

We also went to Sally Beauty. My sister got me a gift card for there for my birthday a couple months ago, so I bought a triple barrel curling iron, and a back combing brush. It was fun. My sisters each got hair extensions, and  managed to get one little piece in my oldest sisters hair, but took it out when they realized they weren't quite sure how to get them in. It made me really miss my family though.

I'm only living in Calgary for a few more months, but still. I think my dad is wanting me to move back sooner, because I've decided when I move back I'm going to move back in with him to save money for school, although the fact that I still haven't found a job is enough to make me worry. Hopefully it'll just all work out though.

No acting news to speak of yet, but maybe one day I'll actually have something!!!